Bullets flying by, sweat dripping down his back, soaking his socks, dehydrated, running into the fight, lives depending on him, they were all at risk. His purpose was clear: He was on mission. He would do whatever was asked of him. He would not acknowledge the fear, only the goal. He would not ask why him, why now? He would only show up and give everything he had. This was my husband. Not for days, not for months, but for YEARS on end.
Let’s read that again, changing a few words. Does it become a picture of your life, times in your life, or the life of someone you know? Attacks coming in, the spirit trembles, there is a physical presence of impending doom, thirsting for knowledge of how it turns out. Mental and emotional exhaustion turns into a physical ache. Trepidation rises in preparation of the fight. Lives may change and lives may end. The risk is great. Do not ask why or how. Draw your sword of faith. You have a purpose: You are on mission. Show up; give all you have, end with your faith in tact.
This life, this mission, doesn’t last forever. It is temporary. You will look back realizing the mission was short even when the run felt long. You will be scarred. You will be forever changed. You will be better for having fought.
Your duty is to God. He is the Commander and He, being better than anything or anyone on earth, loves you regardless of your shortcomings, missteps and regrets. He, being better than anything or anyone on earth, has prepared you for spiritual battle. He, being better than anything or anyone on earth, rewards your willingness to stay in the fight, with experience, wisdom and eventually a peace that transcends your surroundings.
Your God has prepared you, warrior. He will not leave you.
Give time, time. Time is irrelevant to the soul. It’s the showing up and the importance of honoring the time to recover that truly matters. It may take days, it may take months, and it may take years for each battle to fully settle.
You will need help. You will need love. You will need sleep. You will need to find joy in the simple things… a walk in nature, a quiet sacred space, you will need to have the courage to let your inner child play at something it hasn’t experienced in a long time. You WILL get better. You WILL feel like yourself again. There WILL be softness and joy again.
Someone out there needs to know they can make it through their battle. Someone needs to see living proof that it is possible, through you. This is your lasting impact. You will inspire others in ways you will never know this side of heaven.
Pray. Ask God what He is asking of you. Do not ask why. Do not be afraid. Show up. Do it for those who aren’t here anymore to do it themselves. Do it for God. Do it for the warrior spirit in you just waiting to be awakened. You’ve got this, warrior! With God, you’ve got this!!
Bless you Gaya. Those were words I needed to hear today. Thank you.
God works through you Taya. Just reading all of the comments people leave when you write is proof. It seems as if you are speaking directly to me. It is very moving! Thank you so much for using your platform to shed light on this dark world. You are truly an inspiration 🖤🇺🇸
You are such an inspiration and I am so grateful that you put yourself out there to help others! Quick question-will the dogtags that were available earlier this spring become available again-I so wanted one and was just to slow in ordering..God Bless you and your family.
You never fail to inspire me with what you pour out. Thank you sister in Christ. Keep fighting the good fight and putting those thoughts to paper. We need them at a time such as this.
Thank you for these beautiful and inspiring thoughts, you are truly an evolved person. You writing reminds of another, someone who I have found very profound and can read his work and listen to his talks again and again with new insights every time. I am curious if you have ever read or listen to Eckhart Tolle, I really believe that real truth surfaces no matter who conveys it. I see similarities in your writing and his, obvious differences as well, but the core beliefs are the same.
Hi Taya, just wanted to say I admire all you do to keep sharing all the things that are okay to talk about, you bring some sort of normalcy and connection, back to ourselves and those who may need us, you remind me that although we all have our own crosses to bear, that we must never feel alone as God is always in our ❤..My cross and grief is the loss of both parents and a pending divorce…trying to stay strong..Stay safe 🙏
First off let me say that like many people I learned about you through what the movie portrayed of you. I can only imagine how those many deployments that Chris was away from you and your children helped shaped you into who you are today. I thank you for the inspiration that you provide to so many now that you are at pease with all of lifes past challenges. I wish you all the best for your continued success which you truly deserve.
May God bless you and your family always and keep Chris In Eternal Peace,
Semper Fi Forever!
We are so inspired by all that you do, Taya. This new venture of yours is off to a terrific start and will surely rise to greatness. Thanks so much for the blessing that you bring to all that you do – to the tough topics you tackle, to those you support, especially the military, and those who’ve returned from wars. We especially appreciate your uplifting spirit and the fight that’s in you! Ideas for future topics, perhaps: strengthening faith in troubled times; how our educational systems are in peril (Wendy Bell, KDKA Radio recently focused on this one); how to help those struggling w/PTSD (so many counselors ignore the immeasurable goodness of Christ); how to strengthen parenting/grandparenting skills amidst life’s many pressures.
Excellent read. Thank you. Look forward to more.
I personally have survived 12 near death situations divorce earthquakes and being a single dad and helped my two boys recover from PTSD after the earthquakes and one had a drug habit. I’ve sacrificed careerers for my children. I’m surviving this pandemic and will sail around the world. I can help with giving comfort that life is hard but it’s awesome. The mountains and lakes. Rivers the sun on your face and the smell off the sea air. Life is about enjoying the natural beauty of the moment where we live at any point in time.. May Chris be an inspiration and a beacon of light.
Hey tara, I love the blog. I have been in the marines for 11 yrs now 10 yrs as a grunt and have moved on to a different job in the corp. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself and your relationship with ur husband. Covering the ups and even the downs help people get by. Again thank you and Chris was an amazing man.
Thank you for this post! A friend just sent me your link! God truly is the Answer to everything life through at you!I’m only just now becoming familiar with your husband’s story and already he has touched my life. Thank you for keeping that Warrior Spirit alive.
Hey Tara- Would love to see topics surrounding being a parent and staying motivated. Being a parent can be tough sometimes, but I know there is a lot of inspiration out there that others can gain from. Thanks for doing what you do!